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Why I like you, now.
U r yet uncomprehending. By the time you start to, probably this feeling will go away. Or may be I will get used to it (hope not). May be the tides of time, as usual, wash it afar. Or simply, life may happen.
But this moment is precious to me.
You know, basically I am very selfish. I like the fact that you don't demand, in return. In return, being the keystone. Oh ya, boss, you do demand, a lot. But, for the moment I am safe from your demands. But, I promise, even those labours will be of love. But coming back to the main point, you don't demand IN RETURN. I can live you when I want to, I can love you as I want to and I can stop loving you tooooo...oh man you stay there unmoved. Equanimity? My ass!!! I know you just are not "you", yet. And I love that ego centric yet "selfless" you.
Ya ya, I know I have to attend to your nappy RIGHT NOW ,buddy.
I can cuddle you, hold you on my tummy, hold you high hold you low..........love it that you just need your milk and your sleep. Loved it that you did not mind a stranger from 7000 miles afar being so intimate. Loved it that, ya, that I could just play with you. Like..... you were a lifed doll, created for just my pleasure. Yes liked the fact that it was possible for me to "just enjoy" you because of your mom. Liked it that I have, for now, the easier part.
Na, don't feel guilty at all. Why should I?
Learning to be a dad.
Another studentship.
For life, they say.
But, the first 50 days till yesterday were awesome ra gundugaa.
Congrats on your first 50 buddy.
May you have many many many more.
గుండుగా
పుత్రోత్సాహము.......అలవాటు చేస్తున్నావురా.
వేల మైళ్ళావలనున్నా .....
అమ్మ పిచ్చిదిరా. మొన్న "నిన్ను మిస్ అవుతాను," అని చెపుతుంటే అసూయ పడిన సంగతి తెలిసి పెద్దయ్యాక మనసులో ఉంచుకోకు. నీకు ఏమన్నా అవుతుందని మందులు కూడా వేసుకోక నొప్పి భరించే తిక్కదది. మూఢ నమ్మకం అని కాక ఎంత ప్రేమో అని అనుకోగలిగేలా
పెంచితే
పెరగ్గలిగితే
పైవాడు/ఫేట్/హాపెన్స్టన్స్ పెరగనిస్తే.........
Letters to my children
